Don't let.

let us control the emotion.

Question

some people said that 'just boring people feel bored'

i don't agree with this, so i'll ask you back

Are you really haven't feel bored in your whole life?

The Myth

thought, logic, science and God

power comes from its begin

words are just words

what we see, what we feel

is the true balance.

Photo from:

Dunia Sophie by Jostein Gaarder

1:25 AM

in the darkness night, sleepless

a can of coffee and sounds

looking around the corner

when the lights comes

through the flash, i see

things are happen

without reason.

Peucang Island

Sky, island, friends, musics, sea, waves.
2 weeks ago, me and my friends went to Peucang Island in nearly Ujung Kulon, Banten. It is a beautiful island that haven't know as well in public. Peucang has the most beautiful beach ever so far i had visited. There are another island, Ujung Kulon has the rarest animal in the whole world is Badak Bercula Satu. This island is very recommended. Come and visit this island. You will definitely satisfy with this island and the view.

1st Roll of Lilly

I got new camera and its analog, it's Isoly and i named it Lilly. Seriously the results are awesome, i love the tone and pattern of its colors. So natural and calm. Am starting to addicted with camera analog, so i start to want to collect them, beside i need a lot of money to buy them. It's not a lomo btw, and i prefer have the analog one, so classy. Beside, i love lomo too. Let's take a look.

Della & Aa's Wedding Party

What a surprise, that day 18 September 2010 my friend Della and her boyfriend got married for officially. Some of my friends are already married, it is true that we all grow up. last I remember we still like to hang out and with a hangover. Go to a place abuzz. Yeah, now they start a new life. A marriage, something sacred, timeless I hope so. And I'm happy with what their choices, I also wish the best for both of them. Well, now we've grown up, my friends. Until now, even though we already have their own lives. I, as your friend, will still be your friend under any circumstances. I will continue to stay at your side when you need me, because I know you did too. Well friends, now I smile writing this, reliving our memories are insane. Never forget the times we had, our memories will someday be a story for our children. Welcome a new life, do your best for it. x

Music for Me

wow lovely, i really love the way music comes into my head and start to makes me so peaceful. that’s maybe the power of music, good music can makes me so high, its like i almost touch the sky or let me got deeper into another imagination. beside the sounds also take me into happiness and gets me more spirits. thats how music come into my body. lovely, peace and wow.. i can feel it here, deep inside right when i close my eyes.

Zen

last week i made a new tattoo, it might be the last tattoo i have because i promise to my self, god and my mom i won't make another tattoo when the 5th tattoo inked into my skin. well, i make a mistake but i love it anyway. i can't avoid it i want a new tattoo i PROMISE this is the last, for forever. i won't gonna make it anymore.
This tattoo's meaning is The Marvelous Sky of Zen, i love sky and Zen is my chinese name means 'complete and absolute peace' yeah a beautiful sky always makes me so peace, and zen its mean are complete the meaning of this tattoo. i love it, so fucking much.

The Purpose of This Blog

Well, actually i don't really good at writings or photography but i just like both. I often writing what i want to write, maybe my writing's not too good or messy words. Actually i just write down what's the feeling inside that i can't show to other or i want to share to other. I don't make a fake story or fake words, i just write what i feel is real. My blog is more likely my digital diary, well i don't wanna call this a diary but, i don't know just posting what i like and sharing with someone else who read this. lol

xx

Oh I Want This So Fucking Bad

Minolta XG1, actually i don't usually using an analogue camera except lomo. but i just want this so bad, well i believe and proven that the result of the photos will be so beautiful so i shouldn't editing it again in photoshop. i like more the real effect of its camera. they're more natural and beautiful. so this month i will savings my money to buy this baby boy!

The Balance of Seeing

I knew that something may be more pronounced if we see them directly. all of which have been described or merely imagined. then we directly see with our own eyes, something will seem so trustworthy. but, we can not see and understand by just looking, I think seeing with the eyes is not complete if you have not seen with the feeling, the feeling of a very strong heart can sometimes show what looks bad is actually good, and that looks good is really bad. feel something should with balance side, so you will know what should you believe.

Final Term Test.

Wow today is my first day of final term test of semester 6 in fact i'm going to go to next semester 7, time really goes fast, faster than i guess. Well, i have to concern and study more serious. Wish me luck everyone.

Nixon The Re-Run

MOVEMENT: Custom 4 function digital with calendar, dual time, alarm, countdown timer and light CASE: Custom 30 meter stainless steel with molded ABS pushers and hardened mineral crystal BAND: Custom stainless steel with sliding adjustable locking closure. Prices : $80.00-$100.00, available in 4 colors.
Oh, i want that one. Please.

Freedom or Boredom

Its like, i’m easily getting bored despite my life you-can-tell is ‘free’ but when i do the same thing again and again in the same day its fckin’ bored.
The streets, people, my room, those papers, sometimes i can be so lazy but sometimes i can be so diligent. Yeah i have random thought, and can do random thing at the same time. I’d like to go to my course or just go to book store and find coffee shop to read the book. Its fun, yeh it’s true.
Well, i wanna find the line, that i dont have to worry about something.
When i find it, that i know, everything just-really-will be fine. It can be place, or somebody that you believe or just something that makes you comfort, that’s what i mean of ‘the line’ ,when time doesn’t exist.

Van's Did It Again

Vans for May introduces this 2 new models in their spring collection. The great shoes are theVault Del Barco LX and the Chukka Del Barco LX. The sneakers are avialable in Kangaroo or True Grey with a mix of canvas and leather. In stock at Bows & Arrows.

Dreaming Big

Dreams, aspiration, targets what else words that you want to have and get it?! Yeah those are mine and it might yours too. Well, dreams... something that you imagine, something that you want, something that it would be huge if you get it. I remember of one sentence of song say that "Dreaming big..." (sorry, i don't know what song it is), don't be afraid with your dream like when you were child or teenagers still in school you see the richest people or successful people, Bill Gates, Doland Trump, a maker of Apple or Beyonce or bands that you like, they're all famous and rich and they hit their goals (i guess) and you want to be like them they can reach their targets, be success of what they dreamed of.
Here we go again, as young generation, as a person that have dreams. Don't even think that "Ah, i'm just like me, nothing else, how come i will can be success like them? Blah, f*ck off", that was sucks. When you afraid of rejection, and you think that you won't reach yours i think that's the motivation for us. The key is your own motivation, if you don't have one then search it. For example one, your parent (i bet you will say "yes"). My mom said "You have trying, although you will not (i hope don't be) get your targets or your aspirations. But at least you had tried, okay if you don't understand what i mean look at the ruler its 100cm just for example that 100cm is your target, when you trying to get that and you don't get the 100cm remember you had tried to reach that, maybe you will get on 50cm or 80cm, understand what i mean? At least you don't stay on 0cm, when you try you will get one even its not your first target just believe your 50cm or 80cm is your true target, see? You get one, you don't stay at Zero!".
Well, you know you wouldn't be afraid to dreaming big. When you trying, you're on your way to your aspirations :)

Our Self

Find a good words from my friend in Twitter "They can do it, because they think they can" WOW it just rise me up. The words definitely true, sometimes people get pessimist first before they to something that they doubt with. Me either. Well nervous is the result of doubts, a one word can makes you down or inferior, we cannot just wait someone else talk and support us to be not nervous or pessimist well but usually things like that. Or i can't tell that, "Okay, just be optimist!" but deep down inside we're still pessimist right?! (in me, yes). But how to avoid nervous or unconfident?! Okay, some people are optimist, very confident well they are.
Back to that phrase, when we think that we can do something, viola, the result would be what you expect of. I believe it, and i have experience when i thought i cannot do something than i thought "Hey come on, nothing you can not do if you believe your self that you can do it", seriously it works. Not only for big situation or competition, the examples are surrounding us in our life. A tiny things that the first you think you cannot do, and when you believe in your self, you will get what you expected. Beside you all have to remember "Prepare for the worst and expect for the best", okay?!
It's okay when you get down, it naturally indeed but don't stay it too long. Life, it goes on, like you can't still hide when you play Hide and Seek you have a turn to seeking too, then run it.
So, just be confident, be your self, believe in your self, walk by your own everything that you believe you will see you could run it, or might be more than you expected.

IKIK time

Yesterday after i went to campus, as usual when i have no assignment to do or didn't have more DVD to watch or the telly shows the boring scenes i ran to my brush, paint, pencil and papers. I wasn't interest to draw something, i want to make something haha (bm = banyak mau) so thought i'll make a property for photoshoot haha not real photoshoot i mean, just for fun i guess. So i made a huge sun glasses and mustache, and it works i like it and i got my camera and captured me and that stuffs kinda narcism is it huh? haha.

Maja House

Well, last night i went to nearly Lembang, bandung before the way to lembang yeah wherever is it i don't know the route as well. But i know that that place called Maja House. I went to Maja with my friends Acied, Jelipe, Kwek-kwek, Bule. Yeah another beer time i guess, although the day before yesterday i went to Camden to got some beers too (lol) i don't know why, my friends very like beers so much instead of coffee shop like i do. Back to the story, to get Maja its quite long to through the way even Bandung you can tell a small town, but i think its quite long. But we didn't upset, when we arrived just WOW the place is so cool, the architecture is awesome i thought that's like emm minimalist tropical, the furniture are from woods, the color are so warming that in fact its up to bandung thats cold tho. The menu not too expensive (haha we thought that the price will very expensive). We enjoyed sat there, talked something, and of course taking a pictures. I guess, we will get to there again soon, cos we find the new spot that we like. Just come to Maja House, i bet you would tell the opinion like i do.

Reading Lights

In Bandung, i find the place for reading. The atmosphere is really nice, the second hand books available there, and so cheap than you buy in new. Well actually the books approximately the old books, that you cannot find in common book stores. And there are a place for us the visitors to read and coffee & meals corner, you can read and order some drink and food. Totally cozy. The place's Reading Lights at Jl. Siliwangi, Bandung. Come and see, you'll gonna love it.

Free Time

Few days ago, i make a board that filled with photos and i stick it on my wall. And also i stick a world map too. I'd like to re-design of my room or just add some stuffs, painting then stick it again. Or just make a words on my white board or Post It.

Angkasa

Well, my friend Diego choose me to be his illustrator. He makes a story for children title "Angkasa". I don't know why he pick me to draw its characters on the story. Anyway the story haven't finnish yet, but he's on running to finnish it. And i got the draft of the characters, and he likes my draw.

Mixte Vol.05 NIKICIO

I didn't captured more, cause my eyes just keep on saw the show. And the photos aren't good, yeah i'm just used Digital Camera lol. It was great show. NIKICIO did it WOW.

It's really random

Last weekend, i just tweet-ed @nikicio that i asked her to give me one shoot to be her model (lol) anyway yeah i'm drunk, and my tweet was very annoyed well in fact Nina Nikicio is very welcome she replied my tweet and she asked me that 'did i have bought the tix for mixte vol.05?' actually i haven't bought it and i thought i cannot make it, because it's on Monday which is i have one additional class of statistic and it'll gonna be quiz! But, fortunately Nina gave me one free tix, i don't know what she thinkin' of, she don't know me, and i'm just a lil fan of her design but she gave me one free tix for her fashion show.
And yesterday 10 May 2010 at Salihara Gallery held Mixte vol.05 by nikicio, it was the first time i watched fashion show directly in front of my eyes, and it's really great! Even i'd better see Nikicio's show than John Galliano (i don't know how to spell it, sorry if there's an error, lol) 's show. Nina have her own style to show up the fashion industry, the design absolutely simple and gorgeous, fantastic, the colors are very wonderful and just wow!
i'll upload photos from yesterday later,

Regards D

My Social Networking has been hacked

oh well, i dont know why he did it to me, hmm on the first i can log in to any of my social networking like facebook, twitter and my email. but when i logged it out again and i want to log in i cant make it it disable to me to get in. yeah, so i decided to make my NEW facebook and my NEW email which is my YM and my MSN are change too. oh shit, its annoyed and the hardest part of its is to tell all my friends that my all social networking has been hacked. well, i guess i need to refresh my brain with this tragedy hopefully i can erase some shit on my social networking so i became the new born one haha LOL. so if you dont mind please add me again on:
facebook and ym : dewangga.lidansyah@yahoo.com
msn : dewangga.lidansyah@live.com

Regards, D

Help, please.

Help
Yeah I need help, everybody need help
When you broke something and you cannot fix it
Your hands are shaking , your mouth is close
Your thought like just spinning around with dope
Look at the sky which is turning yellow
Though it’s not helpful fact you’re getting mellow
Then you just stand up, and started to walk
With your eyes try to find someone to talk
Here, or somewhere there might be the place
To you to run to get a grip
I don’t know what it is, like you having your own trip
Walking on the path, and singing happy songs
By the train or your self extend along
Another hands you need to hanging with
Call someone make sure that they care it
Let you meet them and tell the story
It won’t be boring like you read book of history
In order of all, it’ll bring a smile
Not for those runners happy for through the miles
We’re relax, not tired
Cause what you need is somebody to talk to
Don’t escape, you run but it wouldn’t be something that you afraid to
Remember, in this whole world
That you think that full of sinner
There might be your helper

The Voices

Wind let the voices echoed
Slow movement of its try to through the rotation
They say “it’s an omen”
Although the workers still doing the same thing
This thing would be different if you thinking
See the light, they simply tossed
Like telly still put the same scenes to watched
Liberate what’s still there
Don’t move, stay there
Silhouette made light and wind remain united
Don’t be angry or you would be hungry
Break them, as if they were only the shadows
Or as when you woke up and see to the out side of window
People do what they wanna do
Instead of what they choose to do
Patient like you in dark room and shout out
You can be insane but no one can kick you out
Walking on your own, talking what’s on your mind
Mind the truth, don’t be liar
People hate it but they did it
Running as you are a horse in grassland
Wondering you’re in the wonderland
Don’t erase the line, ignore it
Like the old man snore in the night
You just stay on your bed, and hear the voices
Let your thought and heart decide

Mabes (markas besar)

Mabes,
When i think everything is mess up
When i get lotta things to fix up
When i need friends to accompany me
When i realized there are true friends
When they need to see me
We don’t have to say or talk to much
Like we all understanding each other too much
They come and never been gone
The problems and shits we sure will get done
Cigarettes made a smoke surrounded us
The conversation like build to last
Filled the cup for sharing this coffee for us
We don’t need money
We don’t need to look so cool
We accepted what we are Not what we’ve got
Their hands strings guitars and shouted the songs lot
Comfort is the only things describe it
Where the place belongs to our 2nd home
Here we are,
As ourself getting high or low

Fixed Up

Strengthen the table, plates and glasses like god protects people
Then they forgot how to remember do the rules
As a sinner don’t care about the consequence
Like the folks get the best influence
We are looking to find another things to blow up
Then we searching the transgressor to shut up
Hands doing things to lift up their life
Thought doing things to get the path
People doing things to make things fix up
Everything sometime should be fine
Even though the life told bout the divine
How we would to see the truth about
Don’t matter it, do the right things
What do you think is worth to fight about
Nothing matters, do something
Face it, learn it, make it to be convince
Find these devices
You will got it, got it
Everything was messed up, will be fixed up

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YOU GOT IT, HUH?

Holding Something Believing

Holding something believing
Through anything fascinating
There are always the clue, for all kind of happiness
We didn’t lock our doors instead of craziness
Cause of we running for find miracle things
Allow the wind to bring the news to us
For those memories and past passed away like dust

Let the words of a witness become the truth
Little light of the shadows knowing it’s fine
Look into the flowers like they tried to tell us the line
Boundaries cannot break us down
Well it’s your turn to stretching the mind
For awhile you in the boundaries vacillation
But fact you’re fine between vacation and action
We talk, we blow up, and we jump
Whole world waiting us to make a move
Don’t play with rules, life gives us the way to prove

My First Ink

Well, this is my first tattoo after i'm getting 19 y.o i got this. I didn't know what am thinkin of when i did this. I aint a sinner but i love art, i want get tattoo since in senior high but am too afraid lol. And then, i remembered my father, my first tattoo about him i tried to told 'i miss him' in my tattoo. So, am not sorry to did it. Beside, my mom got angry when she know it. Sorry mom, but i do this for my dad dedicated for him, and also my second tattoo.

I don't care

Always being get a life, while the cool folks getting higher
I made a common words for those I thought was cooler
Guessing how we can made clear for the situation I had
Its like I’ve been creating how to tried being so well
I forgot how being my self about,
Since I realized I’m just too far from You
I lost the heart and my strongest mind
The truth seems unlikely find a fond
For those things i’ve been through, I don’t care
I don’t care the result for the future
Its full of fakers who think their way is right
Or other just talking about a massive fight
I’m the victim of misery
I don’t know much of misshapen
I put my mind around what’s happen
I’d know the good is, look see which it bring to me
I don’t care now, I don’t care now
Think y’all good but the worse getting close instead
They don’t know, what they meant to show
Just like a clown do the kids laugh,
Inside an adult just look what it tried to make it out
So please don’t stay in thoughts

photo from tumblr

Stealing The Decision

photo from tumblr

See how it feel so good, the happiness leads to the freedom
Like the sky brings a wind to filled my mood
Affection doesn’t mean for lust, it influence to last
Lights can be so wrong, let you see what you shouldn’t see
Depending on how the thought be selective
Kind the wasteful doer cannot feel sea’s excitements
Although trees defeat the leafs
Don’t you see something priceless leave
While we catch up, see how we being so awkward
Wishing others giving the award
We are as a couple, for double who fallin love
Stealing the decision, for the condition
The place that explode my feeling is so real
Before I realized it brings swing to heal
I won’t stop, and you should too
Cup of coffee for two, I make it for you
If it’s a thread between us, I am not afraid
Stay right on your feeling, knowing i’ll prove
Hanging by the look of our eyes, I believe
Our boundaries can relief

My Little Sab Jensen and her twin sweet17

Last night , right on 11 April 11, 2010. My beloved lil fello birthday and she’s 16 going on 17 ‘they’ exactly yeah I just nearly knew Sabrina Jensen have twin she’s Olivia Jensen. In the beginning it was lil bit awkward cause I don’t know there’s a boundary with the guests. The formal one, and my folks the urban street style one LOL. But after the wine already in our glasses and those alcohol drinks people got so talked active we sang a song, and Amer Halim, Sab’s boyfriend sang a song for her… how sweet! And Estelle Dianti oh yeah she was drunk I guess and she sang a song for Sab and Oliv too. Well, happy birthday sweet 17 to both of you Sabrina and Olivia may god give you all the best, Godspeed x

AM IS ARE, ME

the wood, the sky,
don't change
we enjoying the way
look at the mirror
what should you change to
nothing,
don't look what they have
just look into your mind
there is dust,
you don't have to clean it up
it called the personality
they come naturally indeed
what in yours,
what is you have to keep on

Everything leads us, believe it

the reason why i live for
is the one for that i've been doing now
am doing for build the future
for my family or the good
the problems come and gone
whatever is it,
i believe i can through it all
closed friend told me
"no one can brings you down"
it just a small phrase
but it brings be to huge spirit
make it huge,
whatever you are, wherever you belong to
when you being so confuse
when you lost your way, your mind
just show up,
everything will be fine
when you're feel so strong
remember tho' you lived with no talents
you might be just too curious of something
yeah, it will make you open your eyes
that all are numbers on pages
not matters at all, the world teach us
how to live...